Today we will discuss chapters 4-6. There is so much good material here. Let’s get started!
Chapter 4: Harness on the Wind
She (Mamaw) didn’t mean to teach me that Jesus was one who worked in scraps or one who took on strays, but she did. She taught me what the church is supposed to look like. She took care of what she had. She gave part of it away…It wasn’t her job to make the world beautiful. All she did was feed us and give us a place to rest.”
In this chapter we see Amber as not only a new believer on fire for the Lord, but also a newlywed about to attend her first mega-church where her husband served as youth pastor. I had a feeling things were about to get very interesting :).
As a new believer how did you reconcile who God made you to be, the Holy Spirit’s leadings, and the church’s doctrines? Was this a struggle? Do you feel they can all be in unity?
My favorite lines from this chapter that resonated the most with me are right here:
I made a mistake when I came into the church. I walked in newly transformed, with a diamond on my finger, and asked them, “Will you love me now?” If I change the way I dress, calm down some, use your language, and learn to defend the faith well, if I accept the parades of the church and all the fancy fireworks, will you love me then?”(pg.50)
We so desperately want people to love and accept us. We want others to see we are changed after we become christians. But sometimes I think instead of trying to please God we twist it into trying to please His people instead.
We can’t look to the church to be our Holy Spirit.
Only the Holy Spirit can be the Holy Spirit.
What do you think?
Chapter 5: Hungry
So, in my new faith, rather than give in to desire, fall into sin, and die, I decided to kill off desire instead. This is what I thought church was for. I lay down before her-the church-like I had on the dorm room floor. I waited for passions to die. I waited to feel alive.”
In her beautiful spin of words that leave you dizzy and amazed someone actually writes like this, we are reminded we are responsible for our own spiritual journeys. The church is a wonderful place to be, but she is wholly imperfect.
We can’t put our hope in her, because we will only be left disappointed.
We can try-hard holy and will end up putting ourselves in spiritual starvation mode for something real…more. OR we can give into the easy grace and yoke of God. He doesn’t ask us to burden ourselves in trying to be good enough for anyone or anything. He didn’t intend for His church to become a burden, He meant it to be a blessing.
I think for me the question I am asking myself is,”How can I be a blessing in the church and not burden others with religion?”
Chapter 6: A Wolf Revision
I began to revise my future, as if the rewriting would make it better… I saw myself in the past, in love, and I told her, “Revisions of love are perversions. You cannot revise the future for improvements. It is already beautiful-a garden planted, watered, pruned, and bearing fruit.”
This chapter hit me hard and left me looking deep within. Does she not know how to spin a tale of words?!
At some point those of us who are married will go through a spell where we are left wondering, Did we make a mistake? Why aren’t we happy anymore?
Amber had an affair to make her feel alive, loved. She took her eyes off not only her first love, God, but Seth and the life they had created together…for better or worse. New life is forming inside her, and with it I think we are going to see a rebirthing of Amber too.
Conclusion & Questions
What are your thoughts?
Have you ever felt that the church complicates the gospel?
Have you ever found yourself in a cycle of pleasing men rather than God?
Shared by: Alecia Simersky