Don’t be afraid, I’ve redeemed you.
I’ve called your name. You’re mine.
When you’re in over your head, I’ll be there with you.
When you’re in rough waters, you will not go down.
I was fired from the only career I’d ever known. Every dream, every plan, every course I’d charted for myself for the next five, ten, fifteen years – gone. I didn’t know how to dream about anything else for myself when I was struggling to keep my head above the water. I was desperate to provide for my family, I was desperate for God to come speak a big, loud, comforting word over my heart, and I was desperate to be labeled as anything other than “failure.”
I had spent the better part of a decade working toward being a successful career woman. I was checking all the items off my “to do” list:
Attend a prestigious university – check
Earn a master’s degree – check
Get married – check
Climb the corporate ladder – check
Have a baby – check
Buy a house – check
Yet I was miserable. Not because God wasn’t in the midst of those blessings – but because He had asked me to make some changes, to move forward, and I was afraid to take the next step. And so I stayed. And I worked. And I brought home stress and anxiety and frustration until God chose the course that got my full attention. He closed the door.
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How do you learn to seek God again for that next step when you’re afraid everyone who looks at you sees your mistakes and not your heart? I had spent so many years striving to be perfect – do the right thing, have the right title, earn that perfect office – that I’d forgotten how to ask the dream-giver for a new dream. One that glorified Him, and not me.
The reality is God’s plans are never ruined because of our actions. They might be delayed, diverted, shifted to a new path, but when God calls us to do something, He will find a way to bring us to it. So in those months of job searching and dream searching, He kept me from sinking in the rough waters. Oh, friend – there were rough waters. Scripture doesn’t say God will keep us out of the water – but it does say He won’t let us drown, and He won’t leave us.
God had started a course for my life and put a dream on my heart several years ago that before I lost my job, and He used to lay the foundation for the path He was now asking me to take. I could never have known then that the people God put in my life, the passion He put on my heart, would lead to an open door to a job that feels more like ministry, with co-workers who feel like family.
While I was busy striving and stressing, God was busy behind-the-scenes from of my instant- gratification eyes, building relationships that would bring healing and redemption to my story – to His plan for my life.
You are not named by your circumstances. You are not identified by your failure. You are chosen, beloved, called, and cherished as a child of God – and it’s never too late to start dreaming again.
Shared by: Crystal Stine