On Tuesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are so excited to welcome sweet Meredith Bernard, a God-sized Dreamer who shares an important reminder that God can and will make a way if our dreams are from Him. We know her words will encourage you today!
I don’t remember the exact moment the seed was planted, but I knew when it took root.
The seed to leave all I had worked so hard for and the comfort that came from being the strong-willed woman I was. That skin fit because it was the only skin I had ever worn, but it was starting to suffocate me.
Four years of college and two years of graduate school gave me an identity and a job that led to praise and worth. For a while, that was enough. Then life happened.
Life full of its hills and valleys. Its would-haves and could-haves and should-haves.
Life in-between the messy sheets of a divorce and remarriage, a new family and a new job.
Life in the midst of loss and grief and finding myself after realizing I never knew who I was after all.
Life before children. Life after children. And in the aftermath of these two souls born into this life void of caring for more than self…life changed.
The way I viewed the world changed.
The way I viewed myself and everyone around me, changed.
I was seeing with a new pair of eyes. Tired and weary as they were in the dawning light of new motherhood, they were seeing the world more clearly than ever.
What wasn’t important before was now more important than ever.
What was the most important before now lost sight altogether.
When the seed of doubt sprouted that I was doing what God really wanted me to do, I did what I do so well. I ignored it.
I was happy with my career. Well, I was happy with the security and provision I saw my career bring. I told myself that my family could not do without them.
My husband is a farmer. A land and cattle poor farmer and thus we would be poor. It was up to me to support this family unit. Or was it?
Sometimes God tugs on our hearts until it becomes a tear.
His tear on my heart cut deep and wide, exposing the raw truth that I was missing out. Someone else was raising my children and I was missing all the little things that make the whole.
People would often say, “I don’t know how you do your job and find time to be a mother, too. You have a great job. I wish I had your job…” Yeah. I didn’t know how I was doing it either. As the pressure increased to perform and be gone more, I began to realize I couldn’t do it after all.
Oh, I could do it. But I wouldn’t do it. There comes a point when we realize we have to jump ship and trust Him to catch us. (<====Tweet this.)
It was the scariest thought of my life. That I would give up the job that everyone else wanted, to stay home with my kids.
That was not what I did. That was not who I was. But it was who and what God was tearing my heart out to believe could be done and I had to trust that in Him that all things really are possible.
So I quit. And I felt freer than I had since the day I gave my life to Christ.
Only in Christ is there freedom in complete abandon.
Only in Christ do our dreams reach the potential He can give them.
Only through the power of God do our God-sized dreams ever come true. (<==== Tweet this.)
In the nine months since I quit my job to pursue the dream of staying at home, He’s also led me down the path of other fulfilled dreams.
I’m a photographer and I’m a writer. Those are hard words to identify myself with or feel worthy of identifying myself as, but through God’s grace, that is the truth. That is my truth. I’m sharing life through my lens and my pen and finding myself along the way.
I’m also finding Him through the endless loads of laundry, bottom wiping, name-calling police, sibling rivalry referee and 1,532,854th way to cook hamburger for supper.
My new job isn’t easy, but it’s oh. so. worth it. And I wouldn’t trade it for the world.
Maybe God is tugging your heart for something God-sized, too? You don’t have to wait for it to become a tear. Take heart. Be brave. You are not alone. (<====Tweet this.)
Meredith is a perfectly imperfect Daughter of the King, wife to her cattle man and “Mama” to a 3 year-old cowgirl and 5 year-old cowboy. After running from God and past sins for many years, she accepted Jesus’ call at the age of 29 and has since been living free. She is using the passion God has given her to encourage Sisters and give Him glory through her Lens and her Pen. She tries not to take herself or anyone else too seriously and enjoys time on the farm, playing with her kids, and in her kitchen cooking, but mostly she enjoys eating…
Make sure to visit Meredith at her blog today! She’s giving away a beautiful Lisa Leonard necklace!
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