On Wednesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are excited to welcome Nya Abernathy to God-sized Dreams. She shares how God has a plan, even when her’s fail. Thanks for being here today, Nya!
My husband and I are expecting our first child (Can you say Joy! Excitement! Morning sickness!) And when initially considering post-birth plans I figured I’d go back to work after a, hopefully, “long”(more than the generous legislated amount under FMLA of 12 weeks) leave.
However a miserable first trimester(plus the emotional results of ultra-crazy hormones) made me realize the LAST thing I wanted or was willing to do was give my brand new baby to someone I didn’t know to go to a job for 9 hours a day to make just enough money to pay for daycare, diapers, and doctor visits.
So I did what any red-blooded, budget conscious, future mom would do – I made a plan.
Unexpectedly, some pieces of that plan didn’t pan out, so I went to plan B. This pattern has continued and now we’re on Plan J…for Jesus….cause I ain’t got no more plans!
This no-plan having space is really uncomfortable for a recovering legalistic perfectionist like myself. And there have been things in me the Lord has been working on to further my sanctification. One way the Lord reminded me that He is in control and knows what we need was by answering a prayer that could only be answered with divine intervention.
The gist is after an amendment was sent in on our tax return and we moved, we got the refund within a few months of submission (we are talking about the IRS – THAT’S a miracle) that was forwarded to a new address (not supposed to happen), and successfully deposited the check that had a misspelling in my name. We miraculously found a $10 bill neatly clipped to some paper we were going to throw out (if we aren’t at a wedding, we don’t paperclip money to anything).
I’ve heard story after story of friends and families just making it work – every month the bills simply get paid.
The messages of faith-stretching, leaning into God, “getting out of the boat” and the like have been plentiful. All while streams of income dried up. All while my attempts at freelance writing were thwarted by unreturned bids and the exhaustion of pregnancy. All while unexpected bills came rolling in.
I have shed tears and gone through waves of strong anxiety at the thought of aborting our mission and going back to work. I can hardly stomach the thought. But with every bump, the reminders and promises bombard my mind in response, wooing me to trust anyway.
A theme in the Bible that I know but never really paid attention to was this whole “making a way out of no way” business. A way in the wilderness, rivers in the desert, parting the sea to dry land, I get it. Heard it since I was a wee thing at Sunday school.
But here is what Jesus has been showing me: Often these phrases represent the quality of salvation that comes with Jesus’s sacrifice and resurrection. Crossing the Red Sea or the Jordan wasn’t just about getting to the other side. It was a foreshadowing of the impossible work God would do in Christ to bring us to a place of intimate relationship and reconciliation with Him.
A way out of no way.
This is God’s m.o. He deals in the impossible. He wrecks our feeble expectations so that His power and love can be awesomely on display (Ephesians 3:20). Surely if He makes a way for something as significant as my eternal reconciliation, I can trust Him to make ways in the desert of my situation.
I still feel afraid sometimes. I still wonder when and how He’s going to show up…because if I knew then I could truly rest. Pretty faithless, huh? Oh yes, there is a stretching going on – and I can either fight it, or wait to see His glory in His timing in this dream. So when in front of me just looks like more desert and wilderness, I’m learning to trust the Way Maker.
Nya – who utilizes the pen name Created Well – is the primary contributor at TheAntiBlog.net. She likes to talk about the unexpected, particularly the tough stuff. As a communicator, her loves include writing, speaking and teaching. She’s been called a “Dream and Vision Consultant” by those she’s helped and worked with. Nya has launched a site – TheDignityEffect.zohosites.com – and partnered with Break of Dawn International to continue to offer her help to those in need. Find her sharing visual insight and encouragement on Instagram @thedignityeffect.
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