On Tuesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are thrilled to welcome sweet Lovelle Gerth to this space. We know her incredible story of God’s redemption and goodness will encourage your hearts today!
Life is like a puzzle and every situation in life is a puzzle piece.
Our pieces may be mixed up and dismembered or one piece may not look very valuable but when put together by God, it creates a beautiful picture of his love for his people.
I come from poverty. I lived in a home where abuse was a norm. My home wasn’t safe. Walking through the doors caused fear and anguish.
I was made up of what I thought were many bad and useless pieces.
I was never told I was wanted, loved, or cherished but I was reminded that I was dumb, worthless, and incapable. I remember praying to God and asking for help. There were so many “pieces” to my life that I hated and despised. I was told he could fix it. I thought that if I prayed hard he might.
I hoped and prayed that my step dad would sleep through the night. I asked God to make him leave me alone. I begged for the abuse to stop.
I prayed that my mom wouldn’t over drink. I thought that if I prayed hard enough I wouldn’t get hit and no hurtful words would be said.
As far as I knew God didn’t hear so bad things still happened to me.
With no visible answer from God and continuation of abuse, I began to hate life and God for making me. I couldn’t understand what I did to deserve this life built up of horrible pieces…
I didn’t know it at the time but God had a plan and he started to reveal it when I moved out to escape the abuse at the age of 17.
I went back to high school around the time I moved out. I worked around 50 hours a week and attended school from 8am-6pm Monday through Friday. Even if you’re working full time, minimum wage still doesn’t pay the bills.
I see now that God was in control. He was putting a purpose to my pieces. (<====Tweet this.)
The only bright piece to my life that I could find was my grandmother who drove an hour every Sunday to take me to church.
I found God, homeless, in my ghetto 1993 Chevy cavalier.
I had tried so hard to control my surroundings because I didn’t want to be hurt again. I wasn’t controlling anything. Instead fear consumed and controlled me.
As I sat there bawling my eyes out, God got ahold of my broken and scared heart and he started showing me the purpose in the pieces of me that I had hated for so long.
Even after I got saved I still struggled with certain “pieces” of my life. I was working full time and going to college. In a period of three years I moved 12 times.
With few belongings and no strong support I continued to feel alone and unwanted.
I had contact with my grandmother and that made it a little easier but she lived an hour away so the distance between us made things hard.
As I moved from place to place the pieces of my life were a constant reminder that I was alone and parentless in a cold world.
I remember so many nights I would cry myself to sleep. The only thing I could do was pray to God. All I wanted was to be loved and have a home.
I didn’t think God heard my prayers but a year and a half ago He answered my prayers by adding a piece of my life through the Saving Grace Program.
As I began to heal and accept the fact that I wouldn’t have parents, God revealed another piece to my life last September in the form of a wonderful couple, Holley and Mark Gerth.
I had received a book from Holley at a banquet held by Saving Grace. I managed to get her number to thank her and to my surprise she wanted to meet me.
After the meeting we continued to spend time together and as time went on we grew closer. I slowly began to feel safe.
On March 13, 2014 God added another piece to my life. Holley and Mark told me that they wanted to be my parents so on August 28, 2015 my prayer was complete and another piece to my life was added.
That day I officially became a Gerth. I became a wanted daughter.
Along with Mark and Holley, God added another unexpected piece through a man named David.
My abuse made me feel used. I didn’t understand how anyone could give themselves to me if I didn’t have anything to give to them. Through David I have seen what it means to be free. Christ loved us so much that he died for our sins.
He made us new in him.
This January a new chapter piece will be added to my life because I get the privilege of marrying David.
I know now that I am not the things that were done to me. My past is irrelevant because everything that was stolen, God has redeemed.
I never knew what it felt like to have parents.
I never knew what it felt like to be loved.
At times it’s still hard for me to wrap my head around the fact that I am wanted.
I thought I was fine alone but God knew I needed Mark, Holley, and David just as much as they needed me.
It was Christ’s love that saved me and it was God’s Strength that sustained me.
It is the love that Mark, Holley, and David show me that help me understand and embrace the pieces that have made up my life.
As I look at those pieces I no longer see pain like I once did instead, I see a testimony and a purpose.
Never disregard the pieces that make up your life. (<====Click to Tweet)
You may not be able to see it now, but God is using it for his glory. In his time he will reveal it to you.
Wrapped in the confusion and pain you can find a love from your Heavenly Father. Never forget that you are loved!