I recently came across my bucket list. Written years ago, at a time I was feeling desperately stuck, I had a vague anticipation something was on the horizon. My day to day situation seemed so bleak though. I knew God could restore what the locusts had eaten (Joel 2:25), but to be honest, I was nearing the end of my rope.
I remember sitting at my kitchen table creating the list. A list of dreams so big, even writing them down seemed silly. Things I thought I might never be brave enough to try, or even have the chance.
Reading back over the first one gave me goose bumps…
1.) Sailing…serious sailing, in a beautiful, big sailboat with the owner…not just on a rented cruise.
I never could have known God was preparing, even then, to take me on quite a sailing adventure.
When I wrote that dream down I was thinking of sailing in the conventional sense…gorgeous white boat, sails full of wind, unending turquoise sea. Not understanding I would set sail from my computer! Alongside so many brave women (and a few men) from around the world. That the white boat would actually be my black laptop, and the turquoise sea, a vast place called the “internet.” Surrounded by so many dreamers who get it. Readers and writers – who know first hand how hard and beautiful the journey is. Encouraging each other…as the Holy Spirit filled the sails.
Not to mention, sailing with the True Owner of the ship.
Who knew you could sail without leaving the land? (<=== Click to tweet)
This little corner of the web has also been my safe harbor. It’s because of you I was finally able to relax into who God made me to be. The good and the not-so-good parts. To finally accept my identity in Christ.
So, what I’ve been called to do is difficult.
In going through the Mark Batterson Draw the Circle prayer journey, first over the summer and again in the fall, I started to feel a funny little tug that at first I ignored! It was crazy. (Real crazy – not just normal crazy – ha!) Except it got stronger and I finally knew what God was calling me to do.
To step down from leading the God-sized Dreams website.
I cried and cried, wondering how can God give a dream for such a short time, but we (of all people!) know that is the path dreams take at times. Having to lay down the dream of the God-sized Dreams website – oh, I know there are so many lessons there – but truly at first my heart was just so heavy with mourning. It was hard to process. Even typing this still gets the tears going, but it’s often the detours that make life a grand adventure with Him. I love what God says in Genesis 15:1, “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward.” (<=== Click to tweet)
I truly feel God has a remarkable team of leaders hand-selected for this site. Each one has such a heart for supporting God-sized dreamers, in many different ways (missions, prayer, encouragement, etc., etc.), all complimenting each other beautifully.
God bless Kristin, Delonna, and Alecia for being so brave to say yes to this call. I know God has called each one of them for a divinely inspired reason – it will be beautiful to watch it all unfold.
I will stay on as a writer but I’m going to take a little time off. When I started to hear God’s call to lay the site down, I had a feeling I was being called to something “locally,” but didn’t know much beyond that. Just a sense that I had to let go of things first – to make room for what was to come – even though it sounded crazy to be making room for something that didn’t even exist! Oh, the joys of God-sized dreaming! Ha!
Thank you for a wonderful journey! Thank you for the comments, emails, tweets, Facebook comments, etc. I have cried and danced and cheered along with you! Big thanks to Holley Gerth, who taught us the importance of obedience and helped us all set sail in the first place. Gindi Vincent and Kristin Smith, thank you for giving tirelessly, at all hours, for this dream. God knew I would need help and He sent the best! And this dream wouldn’t exist without the writing team – I am grateful for each one of you! Anyone who doesn’t think it’s possible to meet friends on the internet, need only meet this team. One last thank you, to the “Wild 99” (the name Chelle Wilson gave to the original crew of 99 dreamers), for your prayers and support.
I simply cannot wait to see what God has in store for His God-sized dreamers in 2015! Love you all!
Shared by: Christine Wright
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