On Wednesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are excited to welcome Mary Jo Cyr to God-sized Dreams. She is sharing the first part of her cancer journey and how God used it to fulfill the dreams she had. Thanks for being here today, Mary Jo!
A dream. A prayer. An emptiness and loneliness that was hard to explain. Feeling insecure and yet knowing that I belonged to God, but always feeling this emptiness, loneliness and yes, even depression. My prayer was always that God would lead me to real contentment and peace. True peace and contentment that is only found in Him. But, how to get that? I didn’t know. And, so begins my story.
When I was 28 years old, I lost my mom to cancer.
She was 47 years old when she died of pancreatic cancer and I watched her suffer greatly. I would often pray and ask God to please never allow cancer to touch my life. I was confident that He would never allow cancer to come into my body. After all, I loved God so much. I knew He loved me and He knew that living my life to please Him was something I always tried to do. I mean, my “doing” and trying to live a good life should mean something, right?
Although I didn’t know it, then, this chapter of my life was God beginning to fulfill my dream, my prayer and desire to be rid of the loneliness, emptiness and sadness that occupied many of my days throughout most of the years of my life. God was preparing me for what was coming in my life.
He was preparing me for the hardest and most fearful days of my life. (<====Tweet this.)
Proverbs 20:24 says, “A person’s steps are directed by the LORD. How then can anyone understand their own way?” Also, Proverbs 3: 5-6 says, “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.” Oh, how I pray each of you reading these words would believe the words our Lord speaks to us. He does not lie and His words are truth. Only God can cause “all things to work together for good for those who love Him and are called according to His purpose.” Romans 8:28.
Ten years ago, God allowed what I had pleaded with Him to never allow. (<====Tweet this.)
The date was June 23, 2005. I went in for a biopsy of my right breast and although I was probably naïve and arrogant I truly NEVER BELIEVED anything would be wrong with me. After all, I prayed and asked God to never let it be. I was in control of this, so I had nothing to fear. Even the radiologist doing the biopsy said to me, “if I was a bettin’ man I would say there is a 99 percent chance this is nothing.” I was told I would hear from my doctor in about a week with the results.
The next day, I got into my car and turned on the radio and heard this, “whatever is going to happen today you can handle it with God’s help.” I immediately knew I had breast cancer. I believe God wanted me to hear this first before I got the phone call. When I got home my answering machine was blinking. “Hi Mary Jo. This is Dr. Martin. Please call me when you get this.” I thought, “why is he calling me? It has only been 24 hours and they told me a week.”
The doctor’s words brought fear, “I am so sorry to tell you this, but you have invasive ductal cell carcinoma.” BREAST CANCER! I was so scared that I could hardly talk. I was shaking and couldn’t even cry. When I hung up the phone I just stood in the middle of the living room. All I remember is looking up to the heavens and saying, “Lord, if I ever needed you I need you now. Lord, I have no idea what I am about to go through and no idea what your plan is for my life, but I ask that You would please use all I will go through for your Glory.”
Join us next week as Mary Jo shares the rest of her journey through cancer and how God has done some amazing things through it!
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Mary Jo is a wife to Mark and mother to 2 grown sons, a mother-in-law to 2 daughters in law who are more like daughters, and and grandma to 4 of the best grandchildren around. She is thankful that God chose her as His child and prays all who see her, see Jesus in her. You can connect with Mary Jo on her website Grace and Blessings, and on Twitter.
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