I’ve been fighting a fear lately. One I never saw coming. (<==== Click to tweet) I’ve been afraid now that God has answered my prayers and I’ve seen my God-sized dream come true…I’m afraid He’s done with me. It’s a lot easier for me to live in the trust and faith of the dream seeking, dream building, dream chasing. It’s more comfortable for me to encourage and cheer for others who are in those stages because that is the part of the journey where I felt so close to God.
It was a season of expectant hope.
Even if I made a wrong turn or said “no” when I should have said “yes” (or said “yes” when I should have said “no”) there was comfort in knowing that God’s plan for this dream of mine was good. It was from Him. And He would see it through, even if it took a little longer or went slightly off course.
But what happens in the “after” of the dream chasing? (<==== Click to tweet) When the prayers are answered and the finish line for that particular goal has been crossed – is there still more? I’ve been afraid to believe that there would be, afraid to ask God for another dream because the one He gave me, the dream job, the perfect way to support my family, the ability to live out my passion to encourage women and build community? It’s so beautifully beyond anything I could have imagined. More generous than anything I could have asked Him for and it feels selfish to say “do you have something else for me, God?”
I was attending a conference as a speaker when one of the keynote speakers had us stop and ask God for a vision, to reveal how He felt about us. In that quiet, brave space He showed me that I’d been imagining Him at arms length. Like I was a dream-achiever and He was just standing by in case of emergency but He’d moved on to someone else. They were my arms holding Him away. And then God showed me what He was really waiting to do, if I would just let down my guard.
He gave me a vision of the way my toddler runs toward me, full speed, huge smile on her face and wraps her arms in a mighty, full force hug around my neck. The way my heart fills to overflowing in that moment? God wanted me to know that’s how He feels about me. It’s how He feels about you, too. And He’s not done with us.
If you’re just starting to ask God what His dream is for your life – have hope. If you’re in the thick of it and wondering if you’re going to mess it all up – have hope. If God has seen you through to the end and your God-sized dream is now a God-sized reality – have hope.
He’s not done.
Shared by Crystal Stine