For years I have been described as patient and understanding. I wore this title proudly and repeated to others how patience was one of my attributes. I grew up dreaming of being a teacher and practiced my skills on the stuffed animals lined up before me. Sometimes I even had a captive audience in my brothers. I spent many hours developing controlled patience because if I was to be a teacher, a favorite one at that, I needed to speak calmly and kindly.
Just recently, I realized how patience is not as deeply wired into my being as I let on. The world says ask for it and go after it. There is a feeling of waiting for nothing to achieve that next goal. But then I pause and look at where I was and where I am going. The process is just that – a process. One that requires patience.
I still claim patience as part of my personality, but find in certain situations it is lacking. Dreaming takes patience and a willingness to sit in the middle between beginnings and endings. I shared before I just recently began to allow myself to dream. It always sounded like something for children. When you reach a certain age, your time for dreaming is over, right???
The reality of my current life shows me sitting in the middle of a dream. Who would have thought a retired teacher from Ohio would find herself dreaming let alone reaching beyond herself to see it to fruition? But the question I face right now is how do you continue to see your dream to the end when you are caught in a time of waiting? What do you do when nothing is happening, but the path to your dream is ready for next steps?
As I sit here waiting for my new house to be built and my current house to sell, I wonder if I will ever make it down the path. The place in the middle is nothing like I imagined, but everything God planned. It’s hard to admit the doubts filling my mind and the ache in my heart. Instead of holding onto the one who created my plan, I allow uncertainty and lies to lead the way. I find myself worn out from the struggle rather than relishing in the peace of following God’s lead.
The time in the middle holds promise. God’s promise that He will see us through to the end in His perfect timing. Sitting in the middle also creates tension. The good thing is God is in the tension holding out His beautiful peace. We just need to say “yes” and claim it. Finally, anytime you are in between what was and what will be is a time for God to work in you to teach you perseverance in your purpose.
In this time of knowing my dream is a few months away, I find myself struggling more than ever. God carries our struggles when we reach out to Him with patience, prayer and praise. I find myself centered when I embrace the three P’s and center my day around them.
Patience – Sometimes all I need is to practice breathing in deeply and in the exhale blow out all that is weighing me down.
Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Colossians 3:12
Prayer – When I take time to press pause and focus my eyes on Jesus, I see and understand more clearly.
I call on you, my God, for you will answer me;
turn your ear to me and hear my prayer. Psalm 17:6
Praise – My best days are ones that begin with worship music (played loudly, of course). There is joy in the freedom to worship God that never grows old.
May we trust that God is in the middle with the promise He will see us through in His perfect timing!
Shared by: Mary Geisen