Hey friends, lean in close, and let me tell you a secret. I can be a wonderful encourager of others to follow their dreams, but when it comes to my own? Well let’s just say that I often find myself making excuses and shaking in my boots!
I had the rare opportunity to spend a little bit of time at the park with my sister and our kids one weekend recently, and as we talked I realized once again that this dreaming business is hard for so many of us!
Beth, who is younger and has the beautiful straight hair I always wished for, 🙂 is doing a little dream chasing herself very soon. But it wasn’t easy for her to come to that jumping off point and go for it. Beth has a beautiful voice. She was part of concert choir and show choir in high school, and even took voices lessons at one point along the way, but somewhere I believe that her faith in her abilities faded and she stopped singing for and in front of others.
I completely understand the feeling.
I sing on the worship team at church and want to throw up every Sunday that I stand on the altar at the front – all those eyes looking at me. 🙂
I once had a 3 line “solo”, if you can call it that when the congregation is singing along with you, and my voice started to shake so bad…it simultaneously terrifies and exhilarates me. I love to sing, I have always loved it but somewhere along the way my confidence in any talent I may have, went down the drain.
Beth shared with me that since American Idol first came on the air she thought about auditioning. When she turned 27 and officially was “too old” to try she felt a sadness about it. Then she heard about the show The Voice. Twice she signed up to go and audition, but life and maybe a little fear got in the way, and she didn’t follow through with it.
She said that every time she thought about the fact that she hadn’t done it, she felt a pit in her stomach. (Sounds like a dream trying to bust out to me!!)
And then she told me the most profound thing…something her husband said to her.
You encourage our kids to dream, to chase after life and do whatever they want, but you won’t do it for yourself! If you want to be an example for them you have to take the risk and try! Oh such truth, and then he told her that of course he would go with her to be her support – because that is what we need isn’t it – an awesome support system?! Oh how I love that!
I don’t know about you, but that just hit so at home with me!
And he is right! Sometimes we need to be the dream chasers to teach our children to dream too. (<====Click to Tweet)
We can be really good at telling everyone else that they can do this thing or that. We cheer others on, we pray for them, and tell them that no matter what happens, we believe in them.
But when our time comes, it can be awfully hard to believe those things for ourselves. It is easier to make excuses for why it won’t work, time goes by and the dreams fade. Our belief in our ability becomes too small, the fear seems too great and it is easier to shove our own dreams away into the darkest corners of our closets, pretending they aren’t really there.
Being the encourager is wonderful, don’t get me wrong! But that isn’t the only way that I want to be remembered.
I want my kids to know that I was afraid and yet I did it anyways!
I want to show them that they don’t have to be perfect to do that thing they love, because they know their mama wasn’t and she tried in spite of her weakness.
I want to be an example, regardless of the outcome, of walking in faith and obedience to what God has called me to do! (<====Click to Tweet)
I won’t just have dreams FOR my children. I will also dream for myself BECAUSE of my children!
In early June Beth and her husband are taking a little weekend trip to Cleveland, Ohio. And on that Saturday she will walk through doors to face any fears she may have. Maybe this will end up being one of the things crossed off on her bucket list…and maybe it will be more.
But you know what? The outcome doesn’t matter (well ok maybe it matters a little) ;), but the bigger life lesson is that she won’t live with regrets, because she was brave and she chased that dream of hers.
I couldn’t be more proud…and maybe a little sad that my little sister had to teach me this lesson, but mostly just amazingly proud.
Go with confidence Beth, my prayers and my support are with you! And as I step out and follow my own dreams, I will always remember how brave you were!
Shared By: Kristin Anne Smith
Photo Credit: CarriageHouse2011