On Wednesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we welcome back Christy Pearce to this space! Change doesn’t always come easily, and Christy has learned that giving up our bad habits helps us in becoming more like Christ. Thank you for your words today, Christy!
Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.
Colossians 3:2 (ESV)
I love to shop—clothes, kid’s stuff, house stuff, and “good deals” get me giddy.
And sadly, I am also a sucker for a designer handbag.
But shopping and me? We’re actually frenemies.
Shopping has gotten me into deep, deep trouble in the past. Like that time I had a renewed perspective about my shopping habit handed to me courtesy of God Himself.
My New BFF
I hit the mall, thrift stores, consignment shops. I brought home bags upon bags of serious loot. I had so many clothes I could have literally gone MONTHS without doing laundry for something to wear.
Moving became a reality check for me. Having to pack ALL that stuff I bought gave me a chance to see how much I was actually buying. I decided I would cut back.
My little promise to “cut back” eventually died off, and soon that hobby of mine was alive and well again.
After the birth of our first child, I stopped working. And just like that, our two income household was suddenly reduced to one. That didn’t slow my spending spree down though.
Having less money meant I had to get creative about satisfying my shopping fix.
Nothing Up My Sleeve
I had some seriously sneaky and manipulative spending habits. And the old “throw it in the closet for a week or two” trick? I had it down. If my hubby asked, I could say, “Oh, I have had this for a while.”
My husband decided I needed some accountability. He asked me to “clear all purchases with him.”
“Wait, WHAT?? This is so NOT happening!”
I wish I could tell you I came to my senses and turned from my sin. But it actually got much worse before it got better.
I had become a real, live “Shopaholic”—blind to the truth that I was walking in disobedience to my husband and my God over buying “stuff.” (<====Tweet this.)
The Turning Point
God started dealing with me through our ladies bible study. He was drawing me in, but I was resisting at every turn.
Eventually, God gave me eyes to see my sin. I had to stop laying up treasures here on earth and stop ignoring my husband.
Just about the time I started working toward change, the fiery dart came disguised as a coach handbag. In a moment, I forgot ALL (almost) of the conviction I had been experiencing. I wanted make that beauty MINE.
I almost didn’t care that I paid more for that bag than any other bag I owned. I had the Coach handbag of my Shop Girl dreams! The catch? I totally squashed the Jesus Girl in me crying out “What are YOU thinking??”
Beauty and the Beast
I tried carrying that beauty, but I had to slide her back into the dust bag, and back into the dark corner of my closet. Then it hit me. I couldn’t carry that bag because I got it in a darkness-filled moment.
I saw the ugliness of letting the trinkets of earth control my actions for so long—above fulfilling Christ’s desires for me.
I needed help, so I told my bible study girls to “get in my business.” Something radical had to happen. I gave them a pass to speak truth into my life even if it meant my own embarrassment and humiliation.
Today, I stand before you a recovering Shopaholic, and I am okay with that. Jesus has to purge the world from us one way or another. I am so thankful that in love, He shows me my sin! (<====Tweet this.)
P.S. I felt led to sell that last purse as an act of obedience. It sat in a consignment shop for MONTHS unsold. When I went to pick it up, the owner told me that she couldn’t understand why it didn’t sell.
But I knew.
God gave that purse back to me, and now I carry it as a reminder of His mercy and grace—with confidence! Whenever I carry that one, I am careful to share my story of grace with anyone who will listen!
Photo Credit: meridican (some changes made)
Christy Pearce is a wife, stay at home Mommy of 3, writer and speaker. Her passion is to proclaim God’s truth and make Jesus known! While Christy admits that she is far from perfect, she desires that Christ would be preeminent in all she says (writes) and does. Her blog, Faith Like Dirty Diapers, was born out of God using every day events—even a diaper change—to strengthen her with words of life. She would also love to connect with you through Facebook and Twitter.
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