Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever you would call me
Fifteen years ago, God placed orphans on my heart. The HIV/AIDS epidemic was wreaking havoc on communities in Africa. In 1998, it was estimated that 1.5 million children were orphans due to their parents dying from AIDS. I wanted to establish orphanages to provide homes for orphans.
My compass became Psalm 68:5
Father to the fatherless, defender of widows—
this is God, whose dwelling is holy.
God places the lonely in families;
By 1999, I started a non-profit called God’s Precious Gifts. Our goal was to establish orphanages in Kenya to provide loving homes for orphans. Naively I thought it would take me only a few months to see my dream come true. And in a year’s time, the orphanage would be up and running and making an impact; we would lower that daunting number of HIV/AIDS orphans.
Being young without life experience can kill a dream rather quickly if God is not the focus.
Obstacles, delays, and unbelief had me questioning my dream for God’s Precious Gifts. People started to resign from the board. My zeal began to fade and I gave up on the dream of helping orphans.
Fast forward 15 years, when I read the question on Holley Gerth’s book launch application What is your God-Sized Dream? I had to take a moment to reflect on my dreams. At first I gave a “good Christian answer,” but God convicted me. I wasn’t being completely honest so I wrote back to let Holley know about my real God-Sized Dream I had given up on a long time ago.
The moment Holley said YES to my application, God set sail to my dream again. Through the journey of resurrecting that dream my desire to help orphans intensified. Although I had remnant ideas from God’s Precious Gifts, my dream had been revised. Orphans remain the heart of the matter, but how I impact them has changed.
Wisdom has taught me endurance is pivotal in pursuing any God-Sized Dream. It means putting in long hours without getting paid. It means your level of trust has to increase the farther out God takes you in following your dream.
Walking upon the waters – is asking us to focus on God and not our circumstances. (<==== Click to tweet)
No matter the depth of the water, God is calling us to walk on water with Him. God is daring us to stop focusing on the impossibilities all around us, and instead trust that the Creator of the Universe can teach us how to walk on water.
But like Peter at times I find myself looking down at the ocean thinking, “This will never work. I’m not the right person. I’m going to fail for sure. I’m not going to make it Lord.”
When I take my eyes off Jesus, I start to sink down into my circumstances. And walking on water no longer feels possible. In my case, sponsoring 40 children no longer seems possible.
Yet when I take my eyes off the circumstance and focus back on God, I can see that He is using Clothed in Love, the name of my revised dream, to show love to children around the world. God has given me a heart for orphans.
He has asked that I be the hands and feet of Christ for children around the world.
Clothed in Love is an online shop that sells handmade jewelry to raise funds to sponsor orphans around the world. To date we have committed to 15 children who live in Rwanda, China, Honduras, Dominican Republic, Kenya, Uganda, and Ethiopia. Each name has a face with a unique story. My name has been written into each of their stories. God hand-picked them to be the child we sponsor through Clothed in Love. God is not only asking that I give of my finances, but He wants me to give of my time as well.
God is calling me to visit each of our sponsored children at least once to give them a hug. God wants them to know that He loves them so much that He sent me to say those very words in person. Just like God sought after each of us, He wants the children we sponsor to know that they are sought after too.
This time the waters are deeper. The adventure has many crashing waves and storms. But I am committed to following God wherever He leads me. (<==== Click to tweet) I am committed to keep my focus on Him and walk upon the water.
Here at God-sized Dreams, we are partial to the song Oceans, by Hillsong United.
It encapsulates the ideas of facing big struggles, turning to Jesus, and the freedom of resting in His embrace.
Each Monday, Wednesday, and Friday throughout this month of May,
we’re going to explore these issues as presented through the lyrics of the song.
All posts in the series can be found on the Oceans page.