On Wednesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are excited to welcome back April Ayers to God-sized Dreams. She is sharing a little about what she is learning as she waits on God. Thanks for being here again, April!
Waiting is something I have never been good at. I would definitely call myself an impatient person! It is as if there are wheels turning inside of me all of the time, and I struggle to keep up with myself- never quite being able to catch up. Hurry….hurry…hurry….
The challenge of the wait most recently lies in waiting on my dream, a dream that I have fervently prayed over for almost 4 years now. I struggle to find contentment in the life God has me in Right Now….All of my needs are met, I am blessed with immense love, and I’m sure many would say that I have more than enough. And yet, like a child wanting more- I feel this tug in my soul that I cannot shake. This certainty that my family and I are meant to be somewhere else. That if only God would open up that door we are waiting on, the tug would finally give and relief would finally be felt.
As I was reading in my quiet time the other day, I came upon several verses that I was sure the Lord was speaking directly to me….
Psalm 27:14– Wait for the Lord. Be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Isaiah 64:4-…..no eye has seen any God besides you who acts on behalf of those who wait for Him…
Lamentations 3:25– I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for Him. ”The Lord is good to those whose hope is in Him, to the one who seeks Him. It is good to quietly wait for the salvation of the Lord.
Psalm 5:3– In the morning, O Lord, you hear my voice; in the morning I lay my requests before you and wait in expectation.
And then as if this wasn’t enough, I went for a hike and the message I listened to was an amazing one on ‘Waiting on God’s Timing’. Why does God want us to wait on Him? If the dream in my heart isn’t sinful, harmful, and I believe it would actually even better the lives of my husband, myself, and our kids- then why isn’t God answering our prayers?
I have yet to find the golden answer to this question, but I do hear His voice in daily bits and pieces as I read His word. It’s as if the Lord is saying to me…‘My daughter, I know the plans I have for you. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future. You just need to be still and know that I am God. No eye has seen any God like me, who acts on behalf of those who wait for me. Just delight yourself in me and I will give you the desires of your heart. Commit your way to me, trust in me, and I will do this. I will make your steps firm, and though you will stumble at times, I will never let you fall. I will hold you up with my righteous right hand. Just be still, my girl, and know that I am your God.’
As I meditate on these promises, He reveals to me that I don’t need to know all of the answers. And I don’t need to feel in such a hurry. He holds my life in the palm of His mighty hand! He has so many gifts just waiting to be opened all throughout the day that I miss when I am focusing on the “what ifs” that lie ahead. It is a daily lesson in trust. One in which I am challenged to let my Heavenly Father keep hold of the reigns, and trust Him to lead me to a dream that will be better than I ever imagined.
Lord please give me patience as you prepare Your path for me in the days that lie ahead, and forgive me for doubting that Your dream could ever be more than my own.
April is a wife, mom of 4, a nurse, and most recently a writer. Entering into a new season with her children all in school, she felt God’s calling to embark on a new adventure. With a desire in her heart to offer encouragement and inspiration to other women, she has recently started a blog. She holds a passion to inspire women to invite Jesus into their everyday moments as well as the messes. To allow Him to offer healing, forgiveness, and His amazing grace as He makes each story His own.Her prayer is for the Lord she serves to speak through her and be a light to all who He leads her way. You can connect with April on her new website, aprilayers.com
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