On Wednesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are excited to welcome back Wendy Speake to God-sized Dreams. She is sharing a little about her new book, Triggers, and feeling like a small fish in a big pond. Thanks for being here again, Wendy!
The room was packed with women; mothers holding babies; ladies laughing over lunch; older women crowned with silver welcoming the youngest of guests. For nearly a decade now these have been my people. This has been my dream. I present dramatic monologues at women’s events that allow me to segue into the gospel message of Salvation through faith in Christ.
I entertain women, for the sole purpose of moving souls closer to Jesus. Yes, this is my God-sized dream come true.
Over and over again I write stories, then memorize them as I would Shakespeare -not that I compare my pen to his, only that I prepare myself as I would for an honest to goodness performance. I prepare and I pray, I rewrite and I pray, then I pray and prepare some more. Churches know to move the podium off the platform when I ascend the stairs. I don’t bring notes, just stories and an invitation to believe.
Women laugh and women cry, and women hear about a Savior.
But something was different that morning. Though the room was bustling and bursting at the seams, and my words were securely cemented in my memory, I felt empty and unsure. It was a holy sort of emptiness, I knew that God had something unusual planned, but I was frightened nonetheless. With just a few moments to spare I left the auditorium and rounded the far corner of the church. My eyes welled up and the tears fell hot then hurried down my cheeks, landing on my lapel, affixed with a mic.
As I stood trembling, I felt the Lord give me a vision of the little boy who had brought only a small meal of two fish and five measly loaves of bread. Enough, perhaps, for himself and his family, but not nearly adequate to feed those hungry five thousand. And yet, The Lord took what was offered, and worked a miracle.
Without going into detail, let me just say that the Lord did feed and nourish the hearts of many women that day. And He did it on the day I felt that my offering was the smallest I’d ever brought to a women’s event.
I wish that I could stop this post here, with a short exhortation that you would know great joy today as you offer up the smallest of offerings within your basket. Wouldn’t it be grand if we could arrive at the end of a lesson, clinging to new spiritual insights – clinging more tenaciously to Him than we ever have before – and not have to keep coming back to relearn and relearn it? Often, the Lord must teach me the same lesson a number of times.
This past week I released my first book. Triggers: Exchanging Parent’s Angry Reactions for Gentle Biblical Responses, co-authored by Amber Lia, is a book for women who struggle with anger and yelling in their homes.
Printed on thin pages is the promise of transformation, for those who would turn to God on the most challenging mothering days.
Preparing to launch this book was a whole experience for me. I had a list of things to do, and people to contact for endorsements and reviews. And I did. I did my part to the best of my limited ability and resource pool.
One day, only a few weeks before the release of Triggers, I was on the phone with Amber, talking through our launch plans. I was feeling rather small that afternoon, and mentioned to her for the umpteenth time how unimpressive my online platform is. “I’m just a small fish,” I said.
It wasn’t until later that night, as I opened God’s Word, that I turned, quite providentially, to Mark 8, where Jesus is out teaching the masses yet again. And again the people grow hungry and faint, and the disciples get all stressed because they’ve forgotten that Jesus is in the business of doing big things with small offerings.
Perhaps you are a small fish, just like me. You don’t have thousands of followers on Facebook or Instagram, in fact, your basket it rather sparse. Let me encourage you to offer up to Him what you do have to Him in a fresh, believing way today. Lift it up for His blessing and trust Him to do the miracle.
And one more thing, dear dreamers, as I know some of you are moms too. Managing your dreams beyond the dream of mothering can be very stressful. Sometimes having anything at all beyond tending to my little brood and can cause me to snap. If you struggle with anger in your home from the sheer effort of it all, if you find yourself worn out and yelling at your children, then heavy laden with shame, I encourage you to order a copy of Triggers.
To celebrate the release of my new book, I would like to give away one copy to you! Leave me a comment below telling me how you’ve felt like a small fish. I will randomly choose one winner!
As a trained Actress and heartfelt Bible Teacher, Wendy ministers to Women’s hearts through storytelling and Biblical life applications. She utilizes drama, comedy, poetry, and the study of God’s Word. Wendy and her husband Matt live in San Diego, California with their three rough and tumble, strong-willed boys, who roll pell-mell all over each other (and their mother) most every day. Visit Wendy at wendyspeake.com, or follow her parenting adventures on Facebook or Instagram.
Triggers is Wendy Speake and Amber Lia’s first book, published by BRU Publications, a division of The MOB Society.
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