The question for this week’s God Size Dream link up is: Why is your dream worth pursuing, fighting for and seeing through no matter what happens?
My dream embodies who I am as a person. Every since I was a little girl I have always wanted to help children. I have been a child advocate for World Vision. Asked if I could raises funds with those little loaf of breads piggy banks. My brother’s nickname for me was “Miss Save the World”. My heart for children is a part of my DNA.
I strongly believe that EVERY CHILD is a Precious Gift from God.
A child should know they are loved.
A child’s birthday should be celebrated.
A child’s unique purpose should be explored.
I DREAM BIG FOR KIDS!
I sometimes don’t believe I’m the right person for my dream to raise funds and serve orphans. I know silly talk right?
Here is what I wrote on March 18th in my prayer journal:
Thank you for this morning Lord. Thank you for reminding me that I need to work unto you Lord. Thank you that your grace is enormous. Thank you Lord that despite all that I have done you still want to use me. God if you are calling me to go out into the world I will go. I am nervous about finances but I am trusting that if it is your will for me to go to Africa you will provide all of my needs. I pray that you will continue to break my heart for the fatherless, I pray that you point me in the direction you want me to go.
Lord if you are stirring in me or preparing me to go to South Africa so I can love on some children then I will go. I hand over my dreams of a husband and my comfortable family to follow you. I surrender my life to you Lord. Not my will but your will be done. God I don’t want to drive the car of my life anymore. I want to be lead by your wisdom.
I want to know that I recognize your hand moving on my behalf. God I want to step into this God sized dream you have for me. I want to fulfill the promise you are giving me. I want to see you move in a mighty way on behalf of orphans. I need to see you move Lord. I know you love me. I know I want more of you in my life.
Yet I doubt that I am not worthy or know what I am doing in the future. I want to be a good steward of the talents you have given me. Yet I keep thinking about my mistakes Lord and wonder why you would ever chose me to go out in the world. I know it is not the perfect people that you send but the humbly so I humbly come before and ask that you send me.
I pray that you free me from this preconceived notion I have about what I am suppose to do. I want to live that God sized dream out Lord.
I want to become a mother to those who do not know you love them. Lord I pray for those children you plan to run across my path. I pray that you will send them an outpouring of your love. I pray that they will know you God. I pray that they will know how deep, how wide,how full your love is for them. I pray that the hurt and the pain that they are feeling God that you will restore them to wholeness. I pray you turn the sorrow into joy. I pray that ashes will be turned into beauty. I pray that they will know your peace and know that you are God.
I know you have plans for each one of them. I know that you love them and that you are sending people to love on them. So please Lord send me. I want to serve you with my life. I want to be where you are. I want more of you and less of me. AMEN
I surrendered my dream and my life to God
I full heartedly handed my life over to God
Letting go of the reigns may seem hard but I have been amazed of how my life is changing since that prayer.
MIGHTY is our God
He is moving mountains and guiding my every step
The newness in Christ I feel is amazing
for I know that God is with me.