On Tuesdays we are thrilled to fling open the doors to all of YOU! We love hearing your dreaming stories…the lessons you’ve learned, the roads you’ve walked, the dreams He’s planted in your hearts! Today we are so thrilled to welcome our sweet, dreaming sister, Kimberly Thompson, to this space…we know you will find this piece of her heart inspiring as she reminds us of the thankfulness found in the journey, even in those moments when we don’t understand. Thanks for joining us today!
Her email found me early on a weekday morning and it made me smile, an unexpected rest in what has felt lately like an overwhelming rush of constant movement. She asked if I was still interested in writing…the question in my own heart is, CAN I still write, because the words that come are few and irritatingly the same. She mentioned that she had my submission…from 5 months ago…I remembered it then. I wrote it, and sent it because I knew it was what I was supposed to do. And once it was done, I just forgot about it. Funny how some things are so easy to hand over and others, well…
He brought to mind that very same morning something that had stuck with me in such a profound way when I heard it. We store up in the quiet times what we will need in the storm. (<==== Tweet this) I asked if she would send me my words so I could look at them…and so it seems what I stored up all those months ago came washing over me like a flood. Because here I am again, just in a different battle in the same war.
And He knew what I would need and how He would use it, now, always in His timing.
Exhaustion has found its way deep into my bones. I’m tired, crabby and pretty much over it.
So lay it down…
I have begged, pleaded, cried, whined, used my nice words (and some ugly ones too) prayed, screamed….sigh. Are you tired now too? Take THIS!!! I screamed it, I did. The dog left the room.
Lay it down…
And, so I did.
Trepidation seized my heart. What if this isn’t the right way? What if I’m not doing it right? I got a piece of tape and I laid it down the only way I knew how…on paper. And my toddler attempts at obedience…. well, I believe they are all He requires. Do what I can and He will do the rest, but my action is required for His reaction in my situation.
When He had stopped speaking, He said to Simon Peter, Put out into the deep water, and lower your nets for a haul. And Simon Peter answered, Master, we toiled all night [exhaustingly] and caught nothing in our nets. But on the ground of Your word, I will lower the nets [again.]
Luke 5:4-5 AMP
I love the Amplified version. It speaks to me. It makes me smile that I am not the only one…exhaustingly…again… On the ground of Your Word, Lord, I will lower the nets again…I will trust You. (<====Tweet this.) Even though I have been doing this for over two years, and in my mind’s eye I suppose, seeing very little to show for it…
Do it again, You say.
And so, I will. And this is where my little bubble of hope waves hello and gets me every time…..
And when they had done this, they caught a great number of fish; and as their nets were at the point of breaking, They signaled to their partners in the other boat to come and take hold with them. And they came and filled both the boats, so that they began to sink.
Luke 5:6-7 AMP
What is it I believe? That You want to see me struggle and collapse under the weight of these burdens….or struggle and collapse under the weight of Your blessings? To be overwhelmed with the sorrows of this life or to be overwhelmed by Your great mercies?
One way leads to death. The other to life. (<===Tweet this.)
Again, Lord? I’m exhausted…
Lay it down…
What if I fail? What if this falls apart, what if this isn’t it???
But what if it is?
Kimberly is just a girl running after God’s own heart. A single mom of two amazing kids, she is walking the path God has called her to…and now she’s taking a chance and believing in her God-sized Dream, too! Keep up with Kimberly at her blog and on Twitter.
Photo Credit: Ramnath Bhat
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