As I lay in bed it is 3am and I find my heart still racing from the day, my mind playing back conversations, scenarios and to-do lists over and over. “What have I forgotten?” “What didn’t I accomplish, today?” So many thoughts going through my head.
I exhale and start to pray “Lord, I have so much I want to do, so many plans and so much on my plate, but I still feel like I am failing. I just can’t get ahead!”
I have always been the type of person who seems to always be striving, working so very hard to accomplish my goals, complete my lists and desiring to get just a little more done.
Most of you may know my story from previous posts. I spent thirteen years of my life chasing after success and the next promotion in my career. Then, almost 2 years ago, God clearly told me I was doing the right work but for the wrong audience.
He was about to take me on a journey of a lifetime as I left the corporate world and started a coaching company of my own, helping women entrepreneurs create and grow businesses that are impacting the lives of others in a big way.
My life has slowed significantly over the past year from 20+ cities a month to spending each evening with my sweet husband, Adam. We joke about how great it is to finally be married. God has also spent this time teaching my heart the lesson of pursuing significance over success.
Honestly, I still find myself daily pushing and striving. In the midst of it all, my joy starts to slip away as my pace starts to slowly increase. I start to make my own plans even when I know God’s plans are always better than I could ever dream.
I roll over and grab for my phone to see the time: 3:10am. Before I know it, I catch myself scrolling through Facebook, feeling even more frustrated. It appears everyone else is so far ahead in their dream and life looks so easy. I click off my phone and lay there reminding myself that the thoughts I am hearing in my head are all lies.
Once again exhale! As I lay there, I start to recall the words of a book I picked up several weeks ago on ways to infuse your life with more joy: daily praying words of gratitude.
“Lord, I am so very thankful that you have put this dream in my heart, that you have created me to have passion and drive. Lord, you have opened so many incredible doors for me and have been faithful.
You do not expect me to do this alone but to be faithful and willing to follow. Thank you, Lord.” Exhale.
Shared by: Natalie Joy