“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders….” Oceans by Hillsong United
I have a hard time trusting in things that I can’t see.
I was driving home from a trip to my old hometown recently and it was dark. We joke that this particular area of Southwest Minnesota is called the “kill zone” because of the large number of dead deer you will see along the road.
The road was winding. I realized that I could see very clearly between the two white lines that border the 2-lane highway…but beyond that, into the ditch and farther into the empty corn fields next to me, was dark. At times, if there were no other cars around, I could shine my brights and see just a bit more into the ditch. But most of the drive was done not knowing if there were deer out in the shadows.
During drives like this I find myself in constant prayer for protection. I know that there is a good chance that danger is out beyond my sight line. I can see the evidence of it scattered along either side of the highway . I am afraid of the “what-ifs”, the deer unexpectedly coming across the road, the concern that I might hit something. This can make for a long and miserable drive.
I find the same to be true in my faith walk at times.
Comfortable with God in-between the two white lines, I put Him inside of my little box and trust Him in the spaces where I can see clearly and feel I have control.
But in the shadow, in the unknown….that can be harder for me.
What-ifs can weigh heavy and fear can be debilitating.
Fear has dominated many areas of my life – is it a struggle for you as well?
I trust God well when things are calm, when I know what to expect, even in hindsight when I can reflect on His faithfulness.
I struggle most with trust during those times when the future is unknown, when the danger feels real and present. I start to question God’s timing, His provision, even His love for me.
Why is it that this is my natural response? Haven’t I seen the many ways He has been a shelter for me, a refuge in times of a storm?
Then why does my trust only extend to the places that I can see and control?!
This is the part of my faith walk that needs continual refinement. I am a little hard-headed if you must know, and sometimes I have to walk through the fire and experience God’s grace fully to build that trust.
But each time I experience fear of the unknown, I learn to trust a little deeper, to extend my faith out beyond the borders that I have placed God between.
Someday I hope that my faith life reflects trust without fear. (<===Click to Tweet)
That in any moment of difficulty I can say “I know, that I know, that I know, that God is good, He is faithful and He has got this thing”…whatever it may be.
I don’t want to live a life worried about the “what-ifs.” My experience time and time again is that when I look back on a situation that seemed scary at the time, my worst fears were never realized.
Life hasn’t always been easy. We have had to learn some difficult lessons along the way. Yet, I know for certain that God has always been there.
In those times when I can’t see past the white lines and I sense danger is lurking in the shadows….I can be confident that God is in that place as well.
He is in every moment of my life. (<===Click to Tweet)
To walk in faith, to have trust without borders, may just mean that I need to turn over every part of my life to His care and believe that no matter what the outcome, that He IS present.
This continues to be a work in progress for me and I am just so grateful for God’s grace in those many times that I have doubted.
How about you? Do you struggle with trusting God? Can we commit together that we will stop listening to the lies that we can’t trust God in ALL things and start walking in full faith between the white lines and beyond?
Shared by: Kristin Anne Smith
Photo Credit: D. Clow – Maryland
Here at God-sized Dreams, we are partial to the song Oceans, by Hillsong United.
It encapsulates the ideas of facing big struggles, turning to Jesus, and the freedom of resting in His embrace.
Each Monday, Wednesday, and Friday throughout this month of May,
we’re going to explore these issues as presented through the lyrics of the song.
All posts in the series can be found on the Oceans page.