As you read last week, Kristin announced she needed to step away from leadership at God-sized Dreams. When she first felt like God was speaking to her about this, she reached out and asked if I would be interested. I said, “NO WAY! Nope, please ask someone else. The role of leader is too much.” She did. She asked, she prayed, and no one stepped forward.
I felt pretty confident in my no, I wasn’t having second thoughts…until I asked God what He thought :). I was committed to praying with Kristin about the new website leader and the future of GSD. I didn’t feel like I would be a good enough leader, it is a lot of responsibility. I’m more comfortable in supporting roles, and idea generation. I will support, pray, and encourage the heck out of others, but as for me? I tend to short-change myself.
In my prayer time, God began to show me that I had the qualities of a leader, I always have, but I didn’t believe in myself enough to ever make the leap from supporting cast member to lead role.
He showed me my ideas and hopes for this site were possible (and I have many ideas for which I’m excited about!).
Plus, I wouldn’t be doing it alone, I have an amazing team of writers who support and pray for me.
The idea of me being in the role of leadership started to form. Could I do this? I wondered. Like really do it? And do it well? I spent the next several weeks praying. I finally gave up resisting and told God, “If this is something you want me to do, then you will have to get Kristin to ask me again. I’ve told her no once, and that answer will stand unless she asks once more. Then I will know for sure that this idea isn’t all in my head and it’s truly from You.”
In case this was a wild hair that my imagination made up, I wanted to be sure…for me and the site. I didn’t want to say yes, if God had someone else in mind instead.
I can’t remember how much time went by, I just remember waiting…either for a message from Kristin saying so-and-so had said yes, or asking me if I was sure I didn’t want to take it.
But one day the email came. She said she was going to post to our private FB page about needing someone to step up and take over and felt led to message me one.more.time.
I was SHOCKED. God was really calling me to lead the site! I didn’t know if I was more scared or excited.
I replied back to her, “You are not going to believe this. But I told God if you asked me one more time about leadership then I would know it was a sign from Him to take the role and tell you yes.”
I was right, she couldn’t believe it! She just knew she had to ask me again. I’m not sure if I’ve ever had such a clear answer to a prayer before, and I’ve got to say, it was an amazing experience.
So here we are, friends. Kristin is a humble and dedicated leader. She ran this site with her heart. I’m sad she is not at the helm, but so very thankful she is staying on to write and encourage. She has helped me tremendously through this transition, her knowledge and insight is invaluable. Thank you, Kristin!
The quote, “God doesn’t call the qualified, He qualifies the called” (Henry T. Blackaby) comes to mind during this season I am in. Unqualified but, yet, called is exactly how I feel.
In my own strength and wisdom I can not move this site forward, but with God I can do ALL things. (Philippians 4:13)
This verse from Proverbs 3:5-6 “Lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight,” has been my daily prayer. I may not understand everything, but as long as I trust in the One who does, He will go before me and make the path straight.
I covet your prayers and encouragement. If you have any ideas on what you would like to see from us in the future, send me an email. We love guest writers, so if you haven’t written for us…or you have and want to send in another post, go ahead!
And remember, there is no such thing as a small God-sized Dream!
Shared by: Alecia Simersky